Update: I’ve never deleted a post from this site before. I hope I never have to again. I don’t want to try and justify myself, and I can’t really offer any kind of explanation. But I would like to apologise unreservedly to those who I’ve hurt. It seems that I’ve been read in ways I never imagined I would. In seeking to record my own feelings I’ve portrayed my life, and the lives of others in a grossly inaccurate manner. I’ve not been honouring to either my friends or to God and can’t even hope to make it up. I’m sorry.